Firstly, thanks for all your messages of support. I can’t begin to tell you how much I appreciate them and how much strength I have drawn from them.
I went to see the surgeon today and will have an MRI scan, mammogram and chest xray done tomorrow morning. They won’t have a full picture of what’s going on until they’ve analysed all of that, and the surgeon is going to call me tomorrow afternoon to discuss what they have found.
My surgery will most likely be on 20th August, further away than I had somehow thought.
The surgeon seemed a little more optimistic today. They ran some more tests on the samples they took on Tuesday, and found that the cells are not respondent to oestrogen (sp!!) and a couple of other hormones which he mentioned but which I forget!! I am deliberately staying away from online searches at this point so as not to drive myself insane, but that seemed to be a positive thing.
The actual tumour is about 2cm across, which I have no idea about but am hoping that is quite small…it has spread to the lymph node and I don’t think that is a very good thing but will wait and see what is said.
The biggest news is that the surgeon is hoping he can save some of my breast, which would obviously be wonderful, though on the downside I won’t get the lipo on my stomach which might alleviate the effects of childbirth, lol!!! 😀 Only kidding, obviously this would be much easier to recover from than a full mastectomy and I can easily live with a bit of a dimple!
I will still need the chemo and he did mention radiotherapy today as well but I have no idea what that really means yet.
Emotionally, I think I am surprising myself and those around me by how OK I am feeling. Yes, initially I was horrified and I am still scared about the future.
However I am absolutely buggered if I am going to sit around and wallow in self pity. This thing is NOT the boss of me!
This is my 100th blog post. I know traditionally you post 100 things about yourself, and I even have it typed up and ready to go, but somehow it isn’t seeming very important at the moment. I will post it later. 😀
Lastly, my blog is NOT going to revolve around my condition from now on. I’ll post updates, so obviously for the next week or two it will mostly be about what’s going on, but apart from that I will still probably just be posting the same old stuff about the kids driving me mad and my life in general.
Thanks for listening.