Archive for February, 2009


I missed my Blogiversary!

I know it is traditional to post on your first blogiversary, but apparently I have missed this, it was on 15th February! ๐Ÿ˜€

Blogging this past year has been a lot of fun, as well as having a lot more therapeutic qualities than I could ever have guessed. I started the blog without any real ideas about what I was doing or where I was going. That hasn’t changed, lol, but my life certainly has! The past year has been very eventful, to say the least. Despite everything, all the treatment I have gone through, the stress and anxiety, occasional terror and constant unwellness (is thatย a real word??) this past year has NOT been what I would call unhappy. 2007 was probably one of the worst years I have lived through. Robbie being born was the only shining light of happiness that year, for a long, long list of reasons. 2008 most definitely had its bad points ๐Ÿ˜€ but I made lots of new friends, reaquainted myself with many old ones, watched with great pleasure as my children developed, learned more in my relationship with Ian. Above all, I discovered that I have an inner strength that I never began to suspect was there before.

I have SO much to be grateful for. I am a happy, blessed person with a gorgeous family and many friends all 0ver the world. Who could ask for more?

Here are my stats to date, for anyone who is interested-

Total number of hits- 33,389

Posts- 233

Comments- 1520

Best day- 7th August 2008- 414 hits (doubt I will ever get that again!!)

Top Post- the sodding Drennan’s review, of course!!!!! ๐Ÿ˜›

Average number of hits per day- 104 overall.

Above all, thank you so much for reading, even if you never comment. I never thought anyone WOULD read, so to have made some really great friends via blogging over the past year has come as a pleasant surprise. I am also very touched by the number of people I went to school with, relatives that I don’t see too often, and people who otherwise I am not in great contact with who I know read on a regular basis.

Hopefully the coming year won’t be as dramatic as this one has been, but don’t let that put you off!!!! ๐Ÿ˜€


Yikes! Has it really been that long?!

OK, OK, I have been very MIA of late. Thanks very much to everyone who has sent me a message asking if everything is alright- it meant a lot to me.

Sometimes it’s hard to blog whenย  you feel like you have nothing positive to say, and it’s been partly a case of that and partly a case of having virtually no net access.

My oncologist made me take some time off work. I am VERY much hoping he will let me go back next week, but I haven’t worked yet this month, which is very frustrating. I have fun at work- the guys I work with are a constant pick-me-up through my recent illness, and not being around them is (whether they know it or not!!) not good for my health!! ๐Ÿ˜› I miss them.

I’ve had this chest infection for, I think, around six weeks or so now. It won’t go away no matter what antibiotics I take and has really dragged me down, hence the oncologist insisting that I take some time off. I feel like I have the flu most of the time and can’t stop coughing, which is a right pain in the arse.

I ended up back in hospital again about two weeks ago (feels like a YEAR!!) and they took some chest x-rays. My oncologist saw some things on the x-ray that he wasn’t happy about- apparently there were enlarged blood vessels in my lungs which could indicate cancer. Naturally, I was devastated and terrified- noone wants to get to this stage of their treatment and be told that, well, actually there’s not much they can do. The oncologist ordered a CT scan which I had last week, and thank goodness the CT scan was clear. I don’t think I have ever been so relieved about anything! I had really managed to get my knickers in a twist, especially with all the stuff in the news of late about Jade Goody…I feel so bad for her and her family. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

ANYHOW- my radiotherapy treatment is now more than half way over- woo-hoo! It’s going OK, but making me feel constantly exhausted. It’s also a massive nuisance having to go to the hospital every day for it. It isn’t the same hospital as my chemo was done, it’s at the other side of Belfast, so takes a while to get to and from each day. Still, with luck, in under two weeks my treatment will be done and I can move on. ๐Ÿ™‚

My hair is coming out again- grrrr- it must be because my last chemo session was delayed. I reckon another day or two and I will be having to wear the headscarf again. I feel frustrated by this, but it isn’t nearly as hard as it was the last time. I’ll get through it!

I hope that is enough of a pity party for you all to be going on with! Can you see now why I haven’t been blogging? ๐Ÿ˜€ Sometimes it just feels like there’s no point if you don’t have anything nice to say.

Hope everyone is well- I am still only with very limited web access and haven’t even tried to get up to speed with everyone else’s blogs. I will be doing so over the next week or two. I have really missed blogging, and feel a bit out of the way of it now, so will try to get back at itย  now! ๐Ÿ™‚

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