Sometimes I think I am done….and then not.
We’re down to once a day and sometimes not even that. There’s nothing there any more at all- I don’t even use the left boob any more and it didn’t hurt, not even the first couple of days.
He isn’t very bothered any more and only even asks if he is really tired or upset about something. So, it’s very much my problem and not his. Part of me thinks I should just stop, that I am sending my little son mixed signals and that I am being very selfish in continuing at all. Part of me thinks that while we’re both getting some comfort from it, where’s the harm!
What a weird psychological state I find myself in. He’s going to be ten months old this Saturday- and is very nearly walking- I never thought in a million years that we’d still be going at this stage. I’m proud of my achievement but also wonder if, psychologically, it’s been the best thing for me. Certainly now, when he’s perfectly happy to let go of it, and I find myself…not….
I think it’s probably just a backlash against his growing up too darn quickly. He’s going to be my last baby- and I think I am not quite ready to let that stage go yet!
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